I have been thinking a lot over the last few months of the directions life loves to take. I would have never imagined a few years ago that I would be where happen to be now. How did this happen? Why did this happen? These are all questions for philosophy and religion, which is why I like to think about them. So what are some of these surprises in my life?
A simple one would be how much of a computer techy nerd type I have become. Sure I have been around computers my whole life, and while I am not surprised that I use them, it is more a matter of how I use them. Growing up one of my favorite things to do was taking things apart and seeing how they worked. However the trouble came in that I rarely bothered to put it back together, and even when I did they rarely worked. What do I do now for a living? Take apart, fix and put back together computers. In the same realm of computers is my obsession with Unix. Back in my early days of computers I hated anything to with a command line which was one of my big reasons for going back to macs after my stint in the pc world. Yet what do I do now? Spend most of my time messing around in the command line.
A big one is that I managed to get over 25 years in age. When I was an early teen I did not think that I would ever manage to reach this spot in life. Yet somehow here I am. Is it everything I thought it would be? Not at all! Is this bad, no, good, maybe, however what ever it is it is where I am. I am no where near rich, yet at the same time things are back to where I do not have to worry about where rent is coming from for the month. I am still single, I guess not very surprising considering how anti social I tend to be. Not that I do not like people... well maybe this is the case... it is mostly that I am one that needs alone time on a regular basis to keep stable.
Another would be where I am currently living. The closest I have had to a ideal place to live would be going back to Berlin Germany. Beyond that I have never really cared much about where my current home is. Yet at the same time, I never really thought I would end up in New York City. I guess I figured that I would stay a west coast dweller if I lived state side. Yet here I am living on the east side of the country.
How about pets? Considering I am allergic to cats and dogs, I never really planned to have one of my own. I figured if I ever managed to have something it would be a dog. Yet somehow I ended up with a cat! I am on my second one, the first was an accident. The original set up was that I was only to have him for a few months, but somehow I ended up with him for almost a year. I would likely still have him but he got very sick and had to be put down. Then came Arwen, the runt of a litter that had been abandoned. She is now several years old and doing very well. A rather odd cat, but she is my little girl.
There are so many other things in life that tends to make one wonder. How did I get here? Where am I going? In the end it is one of those questions where all one can do is just enjoy the ride.
Anyone who imagines that bliss is normal is going to waste a lot of time running around shouting that he's been robbed. The fact is that most putts don't drop, most beef is tough, most children grow up to be just people, most successful marriages reguire a high degree of mutual toleration, most jobs are often more dull than otherwise. Life is like an old-time rail journey. . . delays, side tracks, smoke, dust, cinders, and jolts, interspersed only occasionally by beautiful vistas, and thrilling bursts of speed. The trick is to thank the Lord for letting you have the ride.
Gordon B. Hinckley